Friday, March 29, 2024

Is it Worth?

When you lose someone, you just don't lose a person. You lose a future that you thought you were going to experience and that hurts so badly. The thing is, for a moment, you felt that this person is a salve to this need that you have had your whole life.

After being single the entire life, this person came along and they felt like the answer. Being an extremist, when you give love to someone, you give it completely. There are no boundaries. And then you get hurt.

Of course you are heartbroken. Don't beat yourself up for being heartbroken. Don't shame yourself for being heartbroken. Don't judge yourself for being heartbroken. It's not really about the person, even though it feels like it is. 

The reality is that the person represented something. And the feeling you got with them, felt like the answer to something that you've been looking for, your entire life. 

But remember, if they really loved you and is meant for you, they will choose you and they will wait for you. 

And when you feel like weeping over, pause and think, is it worth it?


_Quoted_


Sunday, March 24, 2024

Faith


The pastel colours painting the sky,

The humble waves crashing the shore,

Reminds me of who I used to be

I crave to be bubbly myself again.


For the tears that I cried unending,

Like the endless waters in the sea.

I wish I find nothing but inner peace,

Like the endless space in the sky.


The angels who wish us only luck,

And the gods who endow rains of  blessings.

I keep faith in your sincere deeds.

Please don’t let the demons snatch my peace.

Saturday, March 16, 2024

Forever to Heal.


I want US to be a beautiful memory.

To cherish those beautiful moments forever.

But you know what,

It still hurts like fresh.

I wish I could smile when I remember you.

But my eyes won’t stop pouring when I do.

I feel like I’m going nowhere,

As if I’ve lost directions.

It’s easy to say to let go and move on.

But for a heart that has loved so deep,

Imagine how hard this hurt would hit.

My picky heart who chose only you,

Would need forever to heal, I don’t know.


Wednesday, March 6, 2024

_The Right Person_

It's incredibly painful, part of the pain is you continuing to convince yourself that this must, on some level, been the right person and that your right person is now with someone else. Now I don't believe that.  I believe that the right person can only be the right person, when its two people choosing each other.


So part of the  pain we hold on to is believing still that we had this jewel, that's gone.  And as much as we may have loved someone, as much as we may have thought someone was incredible, so compatible, they may have had wonderful qualities, we may have been incredibly attracted to them, they may have been all these great things. But they cannot represent that true dream relationship if they don't choose you. Because, unless someone chooses you, they aren't the person you are supposed to be with. 

You deserve to be someone's choice and not an option. 

- Quoted -