And then comes a time when

the emotions are just intolerable,

mind goes insane,

and things go out of hand.

A state where your

heart can't process all the pain,

lungs are tired of the difficult long breaths,

and eyes are burning after crying continuously.

Life is never going to be the same again.

And you just can't imagine

how to live the next moment,

how to be happy with yourself,

and attempt to live life all over again.

Life becomes an act

where you pretend to be okay,

smile a lot to hide the pain,

cry secretively so that no one would see,

suffer alone for things that are out of your control.

Dark memories are to be buried,

but you wonder how stubborn they are,

just wont allow you to rebounce back to your normal self.

and be cheerful and bubbly once again.

And now you decide 

to be mindful about your feelings and emotions,

to not let any person touch your heart the same way again,

to be okay with people leaving your life,

and not to give a chance for love ever again.

To live at your own pace

No matter how much you try, certain feelings doesn’t go away. They are meant to be there, deep down in your heart, to hurt you at times and to bring a smile at other times. 

And then you realize that the person who had stolen a part of your heart forever has embedded strong feelings which you just can’t let go of. They keep coming back every time you close your eyes, forbidding you from healing and living life the way you did.

Just keep praying every day for inner peace, for strength to cope with disheartening memories and to live for the people who actually care for you.  Keep reminding yourself that memories are only a part of the past, which doesn’t have anything to do with the present or the future.

Just wait for that minute when you do realize that you no more feel anything when you look back at those memories. Count days to escape to that different zone where you can start things fresh, enjoy isolation like before and live life at your own pace.