The Horizon Lied

I had to go, 

We had to stop

Certain things in life 

Are not meant for us.

I look at the sky

And dream of the days

When I gazed the stars

Looking for us, I wont lie.

Did the skies lie to us

When they showed, thus

How beautiful life can be

When I had you and you had me.

You were the sky

I were the sea

The horizon just lied

We could never meet.

Sitting on the shore 

You right next to me

Resting my head on your shoulder

At peace I would be.

Hugging you very tight

Leaning next to your heart

I could listen to your heartbeat

And get lost in our little world all night.

When you held my hand tight

And kissed my forehead that night

Our heartbeats synched and felt alive

I search for that feeling everywhere

But I just can’t find.

Whenever you held my hand

And kissed them gently 

Gazing into my eyes, with love

Drove me crazy beyond and above.

If I ever see you at the street

My heart would still skip a beat

But I will try to be fine

Because you are no longer mine.

The UNSAID

Some bonds in life break up in unexpected ways that we sometimes do not even know where we stopped. And here I am trying to process what just happened. I thought intuition was for real. But see, life fooled me again. How did my intuition go wrong? I thought we were made for each other. We were..... actually, at least from my end. I really thought it was a prank until the last minute, to get me to confess that I loved you too. Well, I guess it was fate pranking me this time. How silly of me.....

There's a lot to ask, and I'll possibly never get to ask ever again. But holding on to these unresolved doubts just wont let me live peacefully. So I better turn them into words so that my mind would be at peace. 

It was all lies weren't they?

The love, the feelings, the care...

Why play around with ME?

Despite knowing how cautious I am about life.

How sensitive I am and how broken I could get

And the truth unravelled a little too late,

I wonder, if you ever felt any love towards me, for at least a moment when we spent together

At least some sympathy?

If you had ever imagined how broken I could get, how much suffering I went through, you would have thought a second time before lying or faking your feelings. I was shattered that I just can't imagine how I survived those weeks.  I have never felt this hurt before. No one could ever me hurt so much. Despite all, how I still cannot hate you...They say, only the ones closest to you can hurt you the most. And see... you succeeded. I wonder, what satisfaction you gained by all this. Cheers on your victory.