Thursday, July 2, 2020

Quoted from a heartbroken diary....



I still remember the first time I saw you. You did not look or smile at the whole crowd who was looking eagerly at you there.  I instantly fell in love with the proud and cool sense of you which defined a wonderful personality. I started liking you so much and I felt so weird when you were around. My heart started to pound so hard when you were at sight and I forgot what to speak. I did not know what was actually going on. I wished that you were mine and only mine. But it seemed like a ‘never will happen’ fantasy. I liked the fact that many people did not like you because I wanted to like you the most. Amidst of all the things going on in my head I realized that it was only a dream that will never come true. I remember how you decided to think about your future leaving ‘ours’ aside and walked away. But no, I could never hate you because my love for you was much stronger than my heartbreak.

I was over the moon that evening when you dropped a message on my phone. Just as eager as I was, when I craved to make you mine several years ago…. Oh my god! Did my vibes finally reach you?? This is indeed a miracle. Yet, it was the right things happening at the wrong time.  You told me that you were wrong and that I was right. You said that you regret what you have done. But what could happen now….It’s all gone, too late to realize that it was me who could fit in your life.  I remember the day when you decided to allow another person fill my space in your life. It was solely your decision and I did not want to interfere with your future. The worst nightmare which no one should ever undergo.

I wish you had realized that we were made for each other much earlier. I wish you did not lie and I did not believe on a false fantasy. I wish that I never loved you this much. My heart wants you but my brain never accepts. I want to live in this moment and believe that nothing had gone wrong.
Life offers us with what we craved for since long at the wrong time. Maybe by this time it’s too late and we can’t own it even though we really want to.  

Just let that heart mend…..

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