Places & Memories

Certain places are filled with memories of people who found their life and of some others who lost the love of their life. Yet those places, with all smiles, joys, cries and tears remain the same. They say to look for things in places where you once lost them, but here I am who goes to places trying to forget them, because I lost them forever. 

 There's no hope left but I'm still trying to figure out the reason as to why I am stuck in this page. I badly want to turn it over and begin a new chapter. Maybe, a part of myself is still not ready to trust someone again. Maybe, I'm scared that I will not be able to handle another heartbreak. Maybe, because I've fed myself that nobody else  would make me feel so compatible and calm, again.

The hardest part of moving on is understanding that the other person is okay with losing you and that kills. Sometimes, nobody understands what your heart really wants. And what's worse is when there's no one to talk to and nobody to listen to. And then, writing becomes your savior.

Relationships cannot be forced, because once fixed, we'll need to spend the rest of our lives with them."Everything will be fine" after marriage, is a myth. Nothing changes as long as both parties are comfortable with each other. I wish to run away from home and disappear until I find peace. But, yes, I'll endure all the pain if that brings peace for all, even if that excludes me. And of course smile wide and bright no matter how much it hurts.